Laundry and Writing

Have I displaced my enthusiasm for writing? Years ago the written word shared my creative energy with photography, editing, and other arts. When I examine my life today as Socrates suggested, I ask myself, where is your passion? Why have I slowed and set aside the creativity I once valued? My ideas begin generously, then dry as fast as laundry on a hot day.

 Words that once tripped from brain to paper are slow in coming and like a routine have become boring. [Ah, a writing stimulus – a little Viagra, please, for the creative mind.] Sometimes I would ather do laundry than write. A tub of wash has an orderly sequence, and the drying rack shows off my effort. How to compare the reluctance of words to the display of undies – three pieces to a rod, three rods across. Nine clean panties in pastels, plus black and white, all neatly arranged. Words are never so perfectly set the first time or even the third. Socks are matched in pairs with heels facing the same direction for quick retrieval. Laundry requires creativity, at least mine does.

In summer’s heat, the wash dries in no time at all. I gather and fold pieces quickly. Stacked dry garments, a few towels, and a washcloth return to their places refreshed. If only words were orderly and stackable. I place words on lines to dry and criticize them for not being right.  My underware fits every time I step into the leg openings and pull the elastic to my waist. The fabric feels light and airy against my skin. Not so with words – I write sentences that scratch. I cross out words, draw the shiv, so to speak, and kill the idea. Until passion returns, I am best suited at and happy with doing laundry.

 While others write to share their lives, I don’t want to root around in the memory trunk of scoldings, scrapbooks, learning to drive, and losing my virginity. If I could write a mud-slapping comedy about the messy times, that might work. Until I figure out how to roll tears into laughter, let me share a favorite word with you – Tegucigalpa.

Neon Signs [Tucson, AZ]

Tucson, AZLast night’s Sock Hop at Pima Community College celebrated the lighting of four 1950s-era neon signs. The signs are on the south side of Drachman Street, between Stone and 10th Avenues. Best to admire the colors and designs in the dark.

Ms. Honda Accord

Ms. Honda Accord

My ’94 Honda Accord with a 5-speed transmission has a classy, sassy way of sporting her 170,000 miles. She’s twice been repainted and had a few scratches dermabrased – the equivalent of a minor facelift. In 2004, I chose a Porsche dark green to replace the dulled black paint. Another five years under the desert sun, and the girl needed a retouch. Now she’s a Subaru green. In dim light, the car darkens to green-black. In sunlight, the metal shimmers with an under-the-jungle-canopy green. A gorgeous color!

You may think that paying a whopping $25 auto registration fee and being eligible for historic plates in two years, the car would be a clunker. Quite the contrary. The car boasts a chip-free windshield, Hawaiian motif bucket seat covers, tiger print floor mats, tinted windows, and no dings. I ride a low 22 inches above ground without GPS, back-up screen, heated seats, climate data, leather or any of the add-ons installed in newer cars. I have just the basics – a Pioneer AM-FM radio, cassette, and CD player. That’s really all I need for listening to recorded books and NPR. Of course, the car has air conditioning, air bags, and a heater, and strands of dental floss float around.

“I’ve been looking for a ’94 Honda,” the emissions test guy said last year.  “Your car is really nice.”

“It’s nice enough for me to drive.” I appreciated his compliment as I took the paperwork and drove off.

Last month I met up with flattery again. I pulled into Beyond Bread for a loaf. A 20-something guy got out of a shabby 2-door Nissan, which he parked next to Ms. Honda.

“Excuse me, Miss. I saw your car on Campbell and followed you into the parking lot.”

“Really? Why did you do that?”

“I like your car and wonder if you’ve thought of selling it?

“Well, I like my car, too, and it’s the only car I have.” I turned and walked, thinking rye or whole grain. He stayed right with me.

“Would you take my name and phone number in case you change your mind?”

What the heck. I feel for people trying for something better.  “Sure, let’s go in and you write down your name and number.”

While I bought the bread, I did an on-the-spot Barbara Walters interview. Drew told me he’s an automotive student at a school in Phoenix. He has an awesome 18-month-old son and needs a 4-door car for the kiddo, car seat, and all the paraphernalia kids require to get from here to there.  My question about his wife had a pretty sad, but not totally unexpected answer. No wife. Actually, no girl friend either. The young lady did not take to motherhood. She’s out of the picture. Drew’s parents care for the awesome tyke during the week.

“Thanks. I’ll keep your name and number.”

I put the paper into my pocket and took the loaf of rye. “If I win the lottery you can have the car. Better yet, I’ll buy you a new one.”

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They’re Back!

They’re Back!

In October when Tucson is still roasting, the white wing doves leave for Mexico. I celebrate their departure and prediction of cooler weather. I’m delighted to feed and enjoy the desert’s wild birds, the nice birds – cactus wrens, Gila woodpeckers, quail, sparrows, hummingbirds, pyrrhuloxias, finches, and mourning doves. Any bird except the white wing.

When the white wing returns in March, their arrival predicts higher temperatures. The bird is nature’s way of saying cool, quiet mornings and clean walls are over.  The males fornicate often and leave clueless females sitting on lamely constructed twig nests all through the heat of summer.

Why don’t I gather these beasty birds to my heart? Our acacia trees become dove tenaments and coo-coo-coo goes on all day long. Their coo-cooing begins at four in the morning, and I’m a light sleeper. In summer, I vacate the east bedroom and claim a west-facing room away from the trees. Those noisy birds put me out of my bedroom. That’s one.

The white wings perch on walls and fencing. With a flick of the tail, a knuckle-size dropping falls. Those nasty lumps dry cement-hard. I resist wasting water, but after a few months I power wash their droppings just to clean the place. That’s two.

White wings are greedy feeders with long beaks.  They aggressively chase off the small wild birds. That’s three, and that’s enough.

Last summer I called the Audubon office and asked how I could scram these pests from my trees and yard. Ms. Audubon chirped, “The white wings are migratory birds and federally protected. You cannot harm them. It’s against the law.”  Until then I had not considered killing them. Not a bad idea, but where to begin? Didn’t John James himself kill birds for his ornithology paintings? However, I needed to look elsewhere for a peace and quiet solution.

I did the next best thing, off to cyberspace. I bought a roll of one inch reflective Mylar from Peaceful Valley Farm. Birds, please say white wing doves too, do not like shiny, moving surfaces. Last summer Mylar streamers blew in the breeze from my fence rails. I painted pink, green, red, and black evil eyes on super-large foil discs and tied them to the tree branches. Acacias with earrings! The trees looked stylish and a boring landscape became zany.

It’s April and the white wings are back! I have work to do. Tie the Mylar streamers on the fencing and get those silvery evil eyes floating in the breeze.  Bye-bye, birdies!

I’m from Newark

A man with silvery-white hair wore a black tee shirt with the words South Amboy printed in large orange letters. An embroidered basketball was centered just below the two words. He passed my table carrying a Starbucks beverage container.

“Hey, Jersey guy,” I said.  He came to a quick stop and backed up to where Anita and I sat with our Starbucks beverage containers.

“I’m from Jersey, too,” I continued without a pause. “When I saw South Amboy, I knew. . ”

“Almost every time I wear the shirt, someone stops me. How long you’ve been in Tucson?”

“For me, too long. We came in ’86. How about you?”

“Thirty years. Where you from?”

“I’m from Newark,” I said with a jokey smile.

“Yeah, you and Whitney Houston.”

“Don’t laugh. I was on a plane once and told the woman next to me the same thing. She said, ‘You mean you’re from South Orange or West Orange.’ No, I’m from Newark. Bergen Street School. Arts High. Went to Rutgers.”

“I went to Rutgers in New Brunswick,” he said. “Did you go to New Brunswick?”

“No, I told you. I’m from Newark. I went to school in Newark.”

What don’t people understand about Newark? It was a great city. I loved the place and still do.  My teachers were phenomenal. Plenty of recreation – ice skating in winter. Fishing with my uncle in Weequahic Park during the summer. Double-feature films at the Cameo Theatre on Elizabeth Avenue. A great library and fine arts museum. Saturdays in New York City. Safe streets where kids had fun.

Gradually, life changed. One by one families and my friends moved to Kenilworth, Belleville, Livingston, the Oranges, Union, and Hillside. They were the white families. We were a white family, but my father stayed on until my sister finished 8th grade. Chris was one of the last white kids to graduate from Bergen Street School. That June we took the white-flight and moved. If I had a magic wand, I’d fix Newark and the city would be great again.

A Summer’s Rain

A Summer’s Rain

“We’ve got to hurry,” said Grandpa Jake, “a storm’s coming.  Look at those clouds.”  He pointed skyward  at the fast-moving, changing weather.  A summer storm would soon drench the streets and us.

Jake was sent to Hyde Park on the monthly errand to pay the electric, gas, and water bills. Grandma told him to buy oranges, too.  As we were leaving the house, she put money in my pocket for paper dolls and an ice cream cone.  Grandpa and I quickly passed Mike’s Barber Shop, Abe Liss’s Flower Shop, and McCrory’s where I had spent my pennies. Jakie cut short the small talk with people he knew.

Taking my hand in his rough palm, he wrapped his fingers around mine and guided me along the sidewalk. We took the shortcut leading down and away from Main Avenue. From those steps a path skirted by neighborhood houses with front porches and gardens protected by white picket fences. The lots sat high and flat above Luzerne Street traffic.

“Grandpa, when I get home I want to cut out my paper dolls.”  My skinny legs wanted to run but grandpa walked slowly in his Sunday shoes.

      We started across a wide field that had enough space for a garbage dump. The outer path was worn by footsteps, bicycle tires, and wagon wheels. A mound of rubbish filled the center of the field — rusty bed springs, tires, broken toys, cabinets, and old mattresses. Sheets of newspapers caught the wind and became airborne. Dogs, cats, and rats ripped open bags of kitchen garbage and feasted.

      On Saturdays a man burned the trash. He lit small fires and stirred the flames with a wooden pole. Sometimes I would go to the edge of the field to watch. I especially liked the flame colors as the daylight dimmed. Flickers of fire and charred bits eventually melted to mounds to red and black embers. Pockets of light gave the dump a magical glow.

      “Hurry up,” said Jake, “the clouds are getting darker.” Jake’s feet didn’t have the hurry of his youth. I easily kept the pace and kept quiet. The wind blew through his unbuttoned suit jacket and whipped at my overalls. Raindrops began to fall — small and gently at first.

     “Suzie, you go on ahead. I’ve got something I have to do.  Alone.  Just go on,” said Grandpa in a shooing voice.

     Walking along the path was fine. I could move closer to the trash and take a better look. I might see something like a good doll and come back for it later. Pushing hair out of my eyes, I turned to look back. Grandpa Jake put the bag of oranges on the ground. His trousers were at his knees. He squatted as raindrops rolled down his back.

      The wind rushed colder air over the field. Dark clouds raced each other to deliver splats of rain to the tops of my red sandals. “Hurry, Grandpa. The lightning’s getting closer.”

      Thunder roared.  My mother always said the booming sounds came from St. Peter rolling the barrels. Beer barrels, I guessed.

      Jake looked around for a piece of loose paper to wipe his soiled part. He fumbled with his trousers and tightened his belt. Raindrops speckled the brown paper bag holding the oranges. Small drops at first, then larger. The rain softened the paper as drops blended into larger and larger dark brown spots.  Jake took shuffle steps toward me, tucking in his shirt at the same time. He was mumbling to himself and held the bag the same way Grandma gripped a chicken’s neck before she wrung it on a Saturday afternoon.

     The storm soaked the paper and split the bag. Oranges rolled like balls on a pool table. They scattered across the dirt picking up bits of grit that stuck to their skin.

     “Gramps, I’m getting soaked,” I complained as I walked back in his direction. “My paper dolls will be ruined.”  We bent to pick up the oranges.

      Grandpa Jake took off his jacket and folded it into a shape round enough to hold the fruit. The rain pelted us, and drops splattered mud on my white socks. My blouse and pants stuck to my skin. It took a while, but all the dirty oranges were gathered into the suit jacket. The bag with my paper dolls went on top. With heads bowed, we walked into the wind. I peeked after every few steps to see how close we were to the side gate.  A few more houses, and then the only two people crossing the dump would be out of the rain.

      “Don’t tell what happened on the field,” Grandpa whispered as he unhooked the gate latch.  “It was the rain that made us late.”

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Bus Ride to the City

Bus Ride to the City

 New Jersey Transport

    Bus 114, Union

Flexon Industries

Park and Ride to Manhattan

Barney’s Discount Furniture

To Interstate 78

Vesey Distributors

Primo’s Restaurant

     Seafood & Lobster

Lighting Fixtures

Electrical Supply — We Discount

September 17 Half Way to

    St. Patrick’s Day

Last Exit Before Toll

Positively no Admittance

   Except on Business

Newport Transportation Company

Golden West Service

Speed Limit  55

Exit 15E  Newark — Jersey City

    Clearance 14’0”

Exit 16E  Stop

     Pay Toll

Paterson Plank Road

    Detour Next Right

Eco  omy Lodge Special

Yield

All Trucks Use

    Right Lane

One Bedroom Condos

    For Sale  863-8690

Port Imperial Ferry

Alamo in Florida

Lincoln Tunnel

    South Tube Rehab

How Am I Driving?

Stop  Pay Toll

Unlawful to Change Lanes.